What is true?

It is easy to say that "yes I trust in the Lord" but it is a whole different ball of wax when that is put to the test.

Today I had a doctor's appt with my rhuematologist. It did not go well. I have been told the medication that I am currently taking is not working and that it has become necessary to move to the next step. The next step is the bological class of drugs which are very very expensive and totally out of my reach.

So I came home bummed. This news was slowly eating away at my brain. Truly like a worm turning ever so slowly eating away at my peace of mind and ability to see hope for the future. But it doesn't matter...none of it...Because

I was made to love You
I was find You
I was made just for You
Made to adore You
I was made to love
and be loved by You

You were here before me
You were wating on me
and You said You'd keep me
never would you leave me
I was made to love You
and be loved by You

The dreams alive with my eyes open wide
Back in the ring
You've got me swinging for the grand prize
I feel the haters spitting vapor on my dreams
but I still believe

I'm reaching out reaching up reaching over
I feel a breeze cover me called Jehovah
and when did I forget

I was made to love You
I was find You
I was made just for You
Made to adore You
I was made to love
and be loved by You

You were here before me
you were wating on me
and You said You'd keep me
never would you leave me
I was made to love You
and be loved by You

I am ever humbled by the way in which God uses everything around us to speak to us. A word from a friend, a randon Bible verse, a song. The song above is by a man named TobyMac. I really respect this man he has spent 20 years in the Christian music industry. We was formerly part of DC Talk and they were HUGE in the 90's and had many forces telling them to tone down the Christian aspect and go mainstream. They refused. Not only did they refuse but all three of the members have managed to continue to live Godly lives in the Spotlight. Anyway I was sitting at the computer listening to some secular music that matched my mood, (rolling stones-Paint it Black, Green Day- Time of your life...etc...) Then I kicked myself in the butt and told myself that sitting here moping was getting me no where, PUT one music to help yourself not hinder...so I opened up iTunes and hit shuffle and "I was Made" was what came up... Yup God is pretty darn awesome. So still don't have a way to get my medicine that will prevent major bone deformity in my body but I WAS MADE TO LOVE HIM! Have you forgotten why you were made????

That's all I got ot say bout that!